Salsa!!!!

Just about mid last year, i found out there was a salsa dance club in Abuja. asides Dance with Me and some salsa music i listen to, i had no idea what salsa was all about, just know its a dance.

so, i went with my friend then to the Dome, i imagined it would be nice to see something else other than my colleagues at work, court rooms, church and boring lawyers.........

So, we went for salsa and i was so elated when i got there! i mean, it was such a beautiful sight! i never knew lots of Nigerians could salsa like that, it was so so beatiful. i got hooked right from that day. Of cos i couldnt make it every thursday and i didnt (and still havent) enrolled for classes plus MF was still in my life then and he made sure he played the what-do-they-do-there card whenever i wanna go and so naturally, i would stay with him than go for salsa.

But by October or so, i knew i wanted to have a life that a man would try to fit in to and not a life waiting to be filled up by some mystery man. it just might turn out to be a waiting for Igodo case (some home video, dont know what it means).

I got hooked and thursdays became happy days for me, i hardly miss salsa days. the only snag was that, the pros dont really like to dance with learners, i know it kills the fun but they can at least try. the slim and very fine girls get lucky, some pros try to come down to their level. and hey, i aint slim, but i consider myself beautiful, so i aint whining!

but eventually, i settled into it and made sure i had fun.

recently i found a patient teacher, he can dance with pros and find time for perpetual learners like me. you had to see me yesterday, i felt like a pro myself! with my skirt and high heeled sandals, turning and swinging and being so happy, of cos at the same time trying to ignore my painful feet!

On the dance floor, u find very interesting and funny xters. take for example, my funny neighbour that i invited. this bros dey very very igbotic (apologies to my igbo folks, aint yabbing u o biko!). this guy on the first day wore shirt and pants all tucked in and serious canoe looking shoes like he was going back to work! and then somehow he decieved himself into believing he could pick up fast cos he saw Dance with Me recently and practiced at home! oh boy, i pitied my friend who had to dance with him a whole of 30 mins during classes (they have 30mins class just before the party), the guy gripped her like he would grip iron! i had 3 mins of hell with him, i developed a migraine immediately. of cos, he must have figured the guy with the softer touch killed the migraine some 20 mins later.

there's also this funny guy who happens to attend my church. we call him "Mr. Stiff Neck". the guy dances like a zombie, he tells u where he wants u to move like a soldier giving command, imagine that kind of proud man trying to teach u to dance! and then, he probably thinks deodorants or perfumes were created for some other kind of people different from him. Mr. Stiff Neck! which makes me want to ask, pls how does one tell a guy politely to use a frigging deodorant or perfume without hurting his ego?! and that being a man does not give u the permission to "afro" ur armpit hair?! anyone has answers?

And theres the chic who was dancing last night, she wore jeans and left her fly open for whatever reasons. everyone had to bear the pains of watching her white strings! maybe am being bush, pls tell me, is that supposed to be some kind of fashion?!

Anyway, the point of all these plenty talk is this:

Its nice to have a life. Its nice to do something fun and interesting just for the purpose of being happy with yourself. Its much more fulfilling than praying and hoping and waiting for that person to come and spice up your life. Now i dont mean to sound like a Matyr or "Strong Woman", i do love love (and men), but theres more to life than waiting endlessly on him.

happy vals day people.

And i still expect my gift(s)!!

Red

Valentine has come again and i am so glad its a saturday! i will so clean my crib, go to work and later to church (maybe) and wont witness too much lovey dovey things and gifts flying all over the place. I am not so sure church will be safe tho, all those chics with their gifts and calls and boyfriends..... pls!

Ok, i know i sound jealous and envious, truth is I am! i was kinda hoping this year would be better, with a better boyfriend (or the previous one get better), nicer gifts and all the works but alas, its not happening!

anyway, before u start abusing or pitying me (woreva), i have made plans alright. the plans still need money to actualise them and i am working towards obtaining from some stupid mugus around me now.
i intend to buy a whole jar of blue bunny, peppered spicey chicken, rich lovely and sinful chocolate cake from ovens and a few hours to myself, considering how annoyingly full and busy my saturdays are.

so, i have made my plans. let no man ask me whats up for vals except u want to send me somethng.
in case u want to, pls here are a few of my desires for val:

- a lovely bra (i am a 34 DD)
- perfumes (thats my latest fancy and no, i wear perfumes all the time, wont be my first) as long as its designer and its not JLO or FLOWER, pls!
- lovely wrist watch
- a sinful choc. cake

Great Discovery

Just wanted to do a small post to lay the issue of MF to rest. Its not a very nice story, but i will do it all the same:

MF got married in December 2008. No, i did not know about it until last sunday and no, MF did not tell me about it. so a very "nice anonymous caller" called me to give me the info. Yes, i was shocked out of my brain, MF cant be that real.

anonymous caller gladly called again to let me know where to find the wedding pictures. very beautiful.

How do i feel? Hmm, thats a tough one but i will described it in a few words: i was numb, hurt, dumbfounded, stupefied, hurt. yeah, hurt.

MF found out about my blog somehow and read everything so he knew the truth about himself. So i know he will read this post too.

I am hurt and drained but gladly, am back on my feet. I am a great believer in "shit happens, get over it". so, am trying.

But i tell u this: it does hurt, hurt like crazy.

Lets see it as a fresh 09 just starting.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hey y'all, happy new year!
I have really missed blogsville and all my padi's, Luscious, LG, Rayo, etc (Everyone)!

Xmas was sooo much fun! everyone was around, all my good ol' padis were around, we were just faffing around all over the place, i almost fell ill when i got back to life i.e. Abuja, work etc.

Cant say much now but i must tell u the crappy thing that just happened, hmmm, e gbami o!

Met Twart (he actually has a name but Twart suits him better than his real name right now) at some family friend's house, nice people. i actually met twart in my first year at uni but didnt remember until later after he reminded me endlessly, so he got my number etc. that he is praying for a wife this year, i just laffed it off, twart actaully got serious cos he started doing funny stuff all over the place (which is so annoying right now).

now, dont get me wrong, am not pissed cos i took him serious, a serious guy doesnt start with so much gizz gizz when he just meets u, afterall, he never know if u be winch, abi?
ntywayz, unto what he did:

so twart started toasting me heavily, seirously talking about how we will try and not let distance be our issue etc, and i said "guy, take it easy, we dont know each other yet" but guy just dey rush. he was asking everyone he knew who knew me all sort of questions, started introducing me as his wife, i was just having a laugh, after all, its no sin having fun like that, hey, its xmas!

short twart started developing cold feet just a day before he left Ils town for lag. he said the distance thingi is just begining to dawn on him. i just said, not to worry, i dont do distance thingi's too. he said i should pls lets give it a try and not give up on it. i said we will talk later.

not to long things sha, guy got to lag, started toasting my closest friend whom he met thru me! as in guy begin dey talk marriage with am! na wa o! crazy just seems an understatement. i mean, what kind of person would do that?

ntywayz, i wasnt rooting for him so its not like i was hurt anything. of cos my friend reported everything, i pretended like i didnt know. thats how twart started calling me repeatedly yesterday, asking if i was ok, why was i so cold, trash, trash, trash. i said "guy, norin do me o, am so good". guilt dey chop am.
after he disturbed me sha, i told him i was gonna call him after church (make stupid twarts like him no spoil my prayer). so i called him and told him what i thot of him for the way he acted.
Biko, ask me what twart said? "I WAS ONLY JOKING WITH YOUR FRIEND, NEVER KNEW SHE WOULD TAKE ME SERIOUS"! begging me o, that he couldnt do that etc!
my pipo, i craze o! how can he say such a stupid thing?! afterwards, he started begging my friend that its true he really likes her that she can be matured about it, he doesnt want to cause issues between 2 friends.

ntywayz, to cut the crap short, na so i just turn am to laffing stock o! presently he has a special ring tone on my phone "AN IDIOT IS CALLING" everybody don laff tire for my office as the idiot still calls me!

will talk about MF jare, another post (not like there's much talk tho).

wish y'all a CRAP and TWART free year! lera men!

TOILET ISSUES (2)!

Hey Pipo, happy new month! i have missed u all. i never knew something could take me away from blogging for so long. ntywayzquickly before something takes me away again, i just have to tell u about this toilet issue thingi o! here goes:

in our complex, every office has got its own key to the toilet, a particular office has misplaced theirs, plus extra, so everyone wonders how they sort out their toilet issues, but no be our bizz until we started noticing about 3 or 4 wks ago, theres always pee diluted with lots of water on the floor of the toilet, everyone has to match it before entering their domain. so who can be doing this kind of horrible and highly disgusting stuff? everyone looks so creme, like they dont do No. 2, u know.

so our secretary said she saw a girl from the next office rush out of the toilet one day and later, she discovered pee and water on the floor again. we didnt catch her per se, so we were watching out.

Note: this chic is a creme chic, i mean, VERY CREME CHIC! she's got an officer boyfriend, one equally cute airforce officer boy o! this girl is so fine and gentle so i really was hoping it wasnt her.



so, yesterday, i saw this girl just stepping out of the loo, and i asked "xcuse me, u got ur key with u?" she said "no, i just went to adjust my dress". i was thinking "u, God don catch u today". so, we entered and saw fresh pee again, diluted with water and flowing all over the place, thats how i lost it and snapped! i sha tried not to embarrass her, i calmed her. so we 3 ladies called her and said she should get our toilet key when she needs to do her bizz. guess what my chic said "yes we dont have the key, but i always use the male toilet". why on earth would she come up with that kind of dumb stupid lie?!?!

why on earth would a lady, grown assed woman, do that kind of thing?!

i tell u, she's been on it for not less than 3 wks! which reminds me, we once saw some kind of "dysentry shit" on the floor! yes, on the clean, tiled toilet floor! now u ask me, who done it?!

whenever i see her, i remember 2 things: pee and shit!!!

P.S:
MF is back (LG, Rayo and Lusciousron, i can hear u say "stupid girl")
what he is back for and what i intend to do, i have no idea.
details later on the next post.

Longest Time

Halloz!
Its been ages, havent been blogging (obviously) or reading any blogs, its been crazy! work is practically drowning me! will do a real post soon, not like anything special has happened asides work. will be right back sha.

miss y'all!

Response to Rape:

Like i said, the issue of Rape and Indecent Dressing has been highly overflogged already (woreva dat means) but for what its worth, our views are important, at least, some big lawyers still think its important abi? Lets reform Nigeria!

1. Should indecent dressing be a defence for the offence of rape?

The very obvious answer to this is NO!

so my very rich and careless neighbour leaves his house wide open and so i enter into it, steal his things and then i got caught and thrown into jail, my defence: he didnt lock his house.

I can assure u that somewhere at the back of my mind, i had always wanted to steal from my rich neighbour, the fact that he didnt lock his house was just some added bonus to make my stealing job easier. but then, i still get to go to jail, why?! bcos i STOLE!!! my neighbours refusal to lock his house, without conceding to carelessness is not a ground or an invitation for me to steal. i had the pre-requisite actus, i.e intention to steal from my neighbour.

i must add at this point that i am not an advocate for indecent dressing, i believe strongly in decency. to save repitition, more of this on 2.

2. In line with 1 above, again, should the Bill of the Senate on Indecent Dressing be looked into again and passed into law?

Again, a very strong and passionate NO!

Even after all the very serious issues that Nigeria has to look into and solve, the Bill on Indecent Dressing will still not be looked into.

What is indecent dressing anyway?

According to whose view and perception and beliefs are we going to base our definition of indecent dressing?

Can such person's view/perception/beliefs be universally accepted? i.e will it not offend some other person's view and opinion?

without going into unnecessary religious arguments, what is decent according to a muslim is very different from a xtian's definition of decency. and then, within the xtian circle, we start talking about what is accepted in some denominations, in my church for example, except u r a worker, u could wear almost 'anything' to church and if glares dont generally make u uncomfortable, then, u have no problems. meanwhile, if my father enters my own church, he probably will think satan himself dwells amongst us.

then we start talking about modes of dressing for some specific places. is anyone supposed to dress in iro and buba or suit to a club? or when a benin girl is getting married, will she be disallowed from wearing her traditional garb which could be likened to our modern day "tube dress"? do we seriously have time for this kind of triviality?

another main issue why it wont work, just like lusciousron said, the police will abuse it. i in my decent knickers (if its allowed) while jogging may be arrested (and molested) and then eventually beg and bribe my way to get out of a stupid cell. while on the other hand, a girl like me in bum shorts will be arrested but released so fast bcos she is Senator/Gov/Rich Man ............... daughter/girlfriend/niece! where is justice? in some cases, there can never be justice.

Anyway, no need to long things, we simply do not have the time, resources etc to start paying some already over fed men to start discussing this issue, we have a lot on our plates already!

3. Can a man be raped?

hmm, now, this is tricky!

the definition of rape provides only for a woman or a girl (dont want to start quoting the whole legal thingy). so technically, a man cannot be raped!

somehow, i dont just believe a man can be raped sha, i mean, he has the "controlling instrument" that cannot really be manipulated. its designed and created in such a way that makes it to be in control of affairs (even i am laughing).

the female organ on the other side, is built and designed to be at the recieving end.

on the other hand, if the provision is re-written in such a way that it includes "boy or man without his consent", then, maybe a man can be raped (still sounds funny tho, men always seem to consent to this).

4. Should there be an offence of rape between married people? i.e Can a man rape his legally married wife?

now, this is one other very tricky part!

hmm............ lets see.

i will give a full YES if and only if the couple in question are separated. if there is a legal separation, either a decree nisi or absolute, and then the man goes to where his wife (or about to be ex) resides and forcefully has sex with her, then, that is rape (or what they think should be spousal rape or marital sexual assault or somfin funny like that).

i will also say yes, if the husband has contracted some STD and has refused to be treated and still forces his wife to have sex, then, we could call it rape.

but when the couple are still together, not on the verge of some divorce or separation, they are in a state of what we call "bliss", how can we call madam's no and oga's cajoling and etc rape? somehow, the fact that there is not only a marriage, but a subsisting one in a state of "bliss" somehow does knock off the full effect of rape, i mean, rape?!!

we also must not fail to look into something important, if the husband has "raped" his wife, so to speak, will she still go ahead to sue him and expect the marriage to continue? in other words, is some "forced sex" ground enough to file for divorce?

what about the kids?

isnt the marriage some sort of proof for consent?

i will defer in my opinion if and only if, the husband is a total freak, who doesnt believe sex is good sex until he beats her, chains her, perform anal sex, introduce funny objects into her vagina or invite a third party (or 4th, 5th, 6th parties) into the show (without her consent tho, who knows, both of them might be total freaks) or generally, have "unnatural sex" with her.

ok, so, this might be rape of some sort.

(i know lots of u will disagree, let me know about it)

another issue is consent and its funny. abeg, is it possible to withdraw consent? at what stage?

i mean, guy is all up and ready and u know it, u wanted it sef, and suddenly, "stop, i cant"!

will it be rape if he continues?! not fair on the man o!

PS

u may have to read the first post to have full import of this post.

would love to hear (or read) ur comments.

Thanx!

Rape

Yesterday i was at this Law Reform Workshop, one of those law thingys that my boss forces everyone to attend. I usually find them boring, i go there thinking "how does this change Nigeria or even the legal system? What do these overfed legal luminaries know etc,".
But yesterday was different, i really enjoyed it cos they discussed a hot topic: Rape/Sexual Assault.

Basically, the workshop was to review and amend, if necessary, the statutory provisions concerning sexual offences, rape being the main offence. They have to know if the definition of rape, consent etc according to the laid down laws were adequate enough to accomodate all sorts of sexual offences.
Will not bother u with the definitions and all.

However, some very interesting, and rather hot issues were raised. they are often common issues but i will like to know ur take on these issues.

1. Should indecent dressing be a defence for the offence of rape? this discussion came up there and of course, everyone was against indecent dressing, but should it really be a defence by a man who has raped a woman?

2. In line with 1 above, again, should the Bill of the Senate on Indecent Dressing be looked into again and passed into law?


3. Can a man be raped?


4. Should there be an offence of rape between married people? i.e Can a man rape his legally married wife? (this is the most important).

So, before i post the rest on this topic, i want to know what Blogsville think.

PS:
i sat with a very cute guy, it made it more fun! details later.

And how can i not say how happy i am for Obama?!! Congrats everyone, i mean, this is good news for everyone. I see it this way: Its a message of hope, there is nothing impossible or unreachable, there is no dream too big to imagine.
May this ending year bring us much hope, and may the good unexpected happen to us all!

Ogogoro for Cure

Hi Pipo!
Been ages o and i have missed y'all!
Internet is bad again, thats like my newest cliche but i still try to find a way to see whats happening to my fave pips, meanwhile, i got just a few mins.

I had this nasty and nagging menstrual cramps that started monday evening, my friend now told me "Ogogoro" i.e hot drink (like rum, like spirit, like sepe, etc) cures it. when the pain was too much for me, na im bobo (details later, newest MF in my life) follow me go supermarket to buy "Chelsea".
Not to long things, i drank like a quarter of the bottle o (the small bottle sha) and slept off! it worked like magic! unfortunately, the pain continued on monday, as if to say : "oya, drink ogogoro go court make i see u"!

Ntywayz, i am fine now, safe for back pain. went to lokoja yesterday for my matter which translates to pure agony. but am back, thank God. hopefully, i get a good massage tonite (LG and Rayo, na u know, its just massage).

PS
stupid taxi man stole my old, ragged but faithful fone on monday plus my wallet! d tin jeopardise me no be small! i mean, the fone is really bad, cant even steal it! God dey sha, abi?

guys, gotta go now, real update 2mrw!

PSS
Rayo, read ur latest post, couldnt post a comment, sorry, will do that mrw.

E gba mi fa!

The thing wey single girl eye go see, no be small thing o!

I recently met this "Uncle" who works next to my office. Someone franctically called me like it was a life or death matter and i looked up to see this short elderly man, so out of respect, didnt know what he was going to say, i went to meet him, na im tory start o!

He started telling me of how he has been seeing me for a long time and he had really liked me and been praying one day he meets me formally. Where im dey see me? For Mama calabar spot (a canopy covered spot where office folks eat just behind my office). he said he always sees me and my colleague come eat there often. why im no come meet me since that time? He didnt want to be rude etc, etc (he no even say make e try pay for my meal once, shio!)

Why wont he like me, afterall, i get big front and back, u had to see his eyes roming and roving thru his glasses, oniranu!

So he introduced himself, took my number (i still dont know why i did that) and na im we begin love;

This Uncle makes me laff ehn! He said he spent all of his life in lagos and so he considers himself to still be one Omo Boy, young boy. He plays all the latest music in town and uses slangs so i can know that He calls me baby.

Now theres a difference btw Baby and Baby. For those of us who had a bit of razz with butter while growing up, u will remember how they call dolls "baby". Thats exactly how he calls me o!

The Uncle is short and probably thinks of himself as one very correct bobo, the man can pose!

Ntywayz, he has been calling me o, offering to drop me everywhere, i should feel free to call him so we can hang out etc, etc.

Abeg, where i for follow am go biko?

Only recently, he came up with the idea of him being in love and that he is afraid that i will break his heart one day etc, etc. love ke?! see this big mumu o!

When girl sit down jeje that she no dey do married men, see the kind issues wey dey confront them. theres even nothing to milk dry in this short Uncle o!

I have plans for him sha, by the time i carry 3 of my friends follow am go Biobak and we take half of his life savings chop fresh fish and snail, and go to Ceddi plaza to buy make up and watch moveis, he will automatically delete my number, agbaya oshi!

i will still leave him around for a week, he dash me 5k last friday, no be bad thing now, abi?

which brings me to ask: Why on earth do married men cheat?! (Jamb question abi?) The things these agbayas are ready to do for small small girls, their wives will have to practically seek the face of God, fast and then prepare their best dish just to ask for whatever! While these same men are mere toys to some other girls, u flash them and they are ready to come from Gwagwalada to Wuse! O ga o!

I know this is a popular topic and we it in the office recently and my colleague said she doesnt wanna know if her husband cheats, as long as she doesnt know about it and he hasnt stopped doing his responsibilities, she doesnt mind. this is what most women think, what u dont know wont hurt u etc, etc.

i havent been able to accept this fact o, its just so unnacceptable! what do y'all think?

Onto Private Matters:

Mr. Nice.

Again.

Back again with full force!

I think am done with anyone trying to make me feel guilty. Nice is such a wonderful and nice and caring and all those things guy. I just happen not to like him, ok, thats not totally true, i can barely stand the guy (see older post on Jacob and Esau).

recently i started feeling weird like: am i doing the right thing? should i just manage? he is a good guy ready to be everything for me etc but i dont have to try to like someone am dating, like should be the first thing!

He still came over last nite, we went over the WHOLE saga again (he just called now, he is coming to see me, again!).

happily, i discovered something last nite, i have always known he is much older than me but yesterday, i discovered that he is SO older than me, in fact, not within my age bracket AT ALL! so i can gladly turn him down even in my mind and not feel guilty about it. abi now?

No title.

went home this weekend for dear friend's wedding, was nice being away from work and reality for a while. na serious owambe, just the way i like it, unfortunately, no fine boys, just some boda agbayas wey don retire and wan spoil small girl like me.
ntywayz, dressed up, partied, serious partying on friday and saturday and had the most stressful journey to and fro but its ok, twas fun. u had to see my gele!
so happy for my friend, nice girl, good guy and they looked so sweeeet! awwwww, weddings make me mushy mushy!

snap! am back to reality.

work is shittingly annoying now, big boss has 2 things to do in the office now: write his briefs and pick on me endlessly and right now, i am soooooooo not bothered. i do not intend to kill myself. work issues will be another post entirely.

mr. Nice refused to pick my calls! that is sooooo funny! i tried to be nice and ask after the guy and then when he finally picked up (i used someone elses fone o), he said it was deliberate. ah, e gbami, see me trying to be matured and nice?! and then he called later to talk about how painfull it is that i dont reciprocate his feelings, he is trying to forget me so he doesnt do anything crazy, that am begining to drive him crazy, ......... blah, blah,blah.
so, i apologised for interupting the process of 'forgetting me'. i was almost feeling sorry for the poor dude but hey, what about me?! i need time! i need to be sure of what am doing! i cant do things based on pity and whatever, i must have a reason. i wont let anyone put me in the guilt mood jo. relationships entail 2 people and so i cant just enter into it bcos he feels sure. if the feeling is not giz giz, at least there must be some liking to go on and i do not feel it right now, and i dont want to apologise for it. period!

oh, MF called on saturday and asked if i was home so he could come see me. i was so glad to tell him i was out of town but that i will call him when i get back. so i did and then he called to say he and his gang were coming to see me, just like old times. back in the days when we had the 'thing' going, he brings his friends to pacify me sort of when he thinks he has offended me and then we just make up.
this time was different: we are over! i did not gist with him or fight with him or try to talk about anything. he is just another bloody person.
he asked why i didnt tell him i was traveling, he might have wanted to attend the wedding. in my mind i went 'seriously?!, go for a wedding with u?!' i refused to answer him jo. let him take a hyke to bloody hell. right now i am in lust with another guy.........woreva, he without sin...........

oh yes, i saw cutie pie back home. met this cute guy last august, name sake too (tho i am tired of namesakes now), i and cutie connect very well. plus last december when i was breaking up with my ex (MF is not an ex), he was there for me, emotionally that is. so why aint we taking it to the next phase? well, cutie stays in lag and i stay in abj and i hate lag, and i cant do no distance thingi again. i am making myself emotionally available for what might work.
i and cutie have chemistry, plenty chemistry! so u can imagine how sweeeet it was to see cutie again! na u know wetin ur mind dey think o, havent said i did anything. (anonymous G, u r not allowed to comment on the chemistry part!).
cutie talked bout the probability of a relationship again, wants us to give it a try. i am so not taking anything serious for now jo.
hmm, cutie just called me now. awwwwwww, mushy mushy!

enough of my ramblings, gotta go back to work, even tho i hate it there right now.

Hate Mail/Post

The holiday has been most boring, gradually ending sha and am so glad to get back to normal life, i.e, work, not like anything new coming up.

called MF today to say happy birthday, sent him a lovely text too.
just dis afternoon, MF called, or so it seemed. picked it, 'hello?' no response. then it got interesting.......

MF and some girl is gisting, chatting away happily or so, from all i could hear. heard her name... a chic MF told me nothing was up anymo (LG can hear u ask if i believed it), heard stuff i shouldnt have listened to, shouldnt have heard. i coulda cut da fone when i knew the call was either a mistake or..... woreva
But i didnt end the call, listened, got pissed, angry, jealous too i guess, i mean, i dont know jo. i just know i was pissed. but i am glad i did. reality either creeps on u or dawns suddenly and heavily on u, so figure.........

so i called MF, said hi, asked if the call was a mistake, started saying stuff like it was deliberate, he wanted to say hi but i didnt talk, was watching soccer........ crap, crap, crap! obviously lying and i just hated him at that point. told him it couldnt have been cos he couldnt have wanted me to hear all i heard.
some mins lera, he called and like 'if u knew the call was a mistake, why didnt u just end the call for me?'
am like 'i wanted to, until the conv started getting interesting, am glad i heard what i heard anyway'.
'and what did u hear?' Deut. 29 v 29
'try to remember what u really truly was doing' obviously not soccer like u claimed.
'ok bye'. click.

am pissed pissed pissed!!!!!!!!!
ok, shit happens, one of those crap that happen in life. learnt my lesson. there is more to life than MF! its a done and bad deal. borrowing afro's cliche : TOTAL FUCKERY.
i feel stupid and silly, dunno why.
its a phase jo.

MF can frigging take a frigging bow now!!!!!!!

happy independence guys. may we truly be liberated from whatever issues holding us, be it MF like issues, especially MF like issues!

Jacob i love, Esau i hate

never mind the title, if i dont lose u, u just might see the reason for the title.....

sometimes i wish life and choices werent so hard, thats not new, we all do. but right now, i really really do wish i could just have this...

i keep telling people and myself i dont have a boyfriend, its partly true and partly....not very true. i have (had) MF.

MF and i met in Jos in the courtroom thru an old school mate. MF is taaaaaaaaaalllllllll, (of cos i fell for the height first), keeps a lil' afro, quiet, fun to be with, very very brilliant and intelligent, athletic, friendly in his own quiet way and one of the most annoying and insensitive men (so it seems) i have ever met. sometimes its as if MF was created for a sole purpose: to annoy the living day out of me! we can so fight, we can so argue, we can so gist and ........... imagine the other fun things we do. with time, MF was the only guy i was "seeing", literarily and literaly (woreva, spot the difference).



MF had (still has, annoyingly so) the power to melt me. whenever we had one of our plenty squabbles, he will just show up mid-day in my office, without calling, and i see him, i just MELT. and then he could go further by calling me by my 'oriki' and i just MELLTTTTTTTT!
i used to think i couldnt stand poems, until MF wrote me 2 beautiful poems.
we had all that, the sparks, chemistry, all that and we had so much fun together.

so we were rolling together, faffing around, gradually became an item which i denied every time 'we were just friends'. at work all my colleagues knew MF. theres my friend at work, Madam, she could detect days i had gone 'kwanagidaing' at MF's. i was glowing she said. it was all fun until of cos, the defining moment came..........

MF sort of talked the talked and then we had to face the one big issue:
religion.

before u hang me, i gotta tell u i am one of those people that feel u must have the same spiritual understanding. we could have all the sparks et al, but we would be operating at 2 very different frequencies, and it was still gonna cause issues.

MF of cos didnt think it was issue enuff, always lunched into the intellectual arguments of free thinking, belief in God, etc. MF never really opened up to me about his beliefs, which till today is so annoying........

so i made up my mind, things couldnt go on this way. there had to be a decision. a tough one but it still had to be made. we broke up and made up like a million times. well, actually, i was the one breaking up.
so i started looking for a serious distraction, someone or something so strong that will make me finally give MF up. either i did that or i wait for MF to serve me his wedding IV someday soon.

along came Mr. Nice........

i have known oga nice for about 3 yrs now. very nice man. so nice its so annoying. he is always so ready to please me, be the nice guy, complement every frigging thing i do, (if i mess sef, i sure say the guy go say the mess smells good), ready to do my bidding etc. just one basic issue with oga nice..
i do not like him.

funny as it may sound, i just cannot get to like this guy. he just never seems to get it right with me. i have never even hugged this guy, cant do it and for me, thats a bad sign. some of my friends think i should just try and like this guy, give him a chance, he is nice and knows what exactly he wants which is a good thing. of cos na old guy, he suppose know wetin he want.
so, kid bro is around, fell ill and oga nice just played his part well: he was very very nice. kid bro likes him already, which is a plus, kid bro never likes any of my guys. kiddy asked me what exactly my problem is etc..... why are lots of people on oga nice's side anyway?
by the way, he is short which isnt a big plus and............ not just it for me! is that such a bad thing?

Jacob i love.........
MF is a Jacob kinda (pls ignore the love part). Jacob annoys me and gets away with it. he tolerates my excesses, we just.........flow. i just like him.

Esau i hate........
Mr. NIce is Esau tho i dont hate him. i dont think i dislike him. i just dont like or feel him and dont think it can happen. it didnt happen for 2 yrs i dont know if it can now. whenever the guy attempts to hug or kiss me i flinch and i dont do much in hiding it. he even mentioned it that it embarrasses him.... woreva. dunno.

so right now, am confused, lonely and missing MF so bad, want to see him and yell at him and hug him and kiss him mindless.

gotta stop rambling. i know this is mindless

Right now i am sooooooooooo full of things to right but the stupid internet guys have decided to mess me up! i am at a cyber cafe! it is very annoying.

i have gist on work, beefer (work related), MF again, basically, issues...... plenty plenty.

i miss luscious ron, rayo, afrobabe, buttercup, ladyguide etc, just realised how much reading ur blogs mean to me (and of cos how y'all keep me from doing serious work, now i have internet hours for myself, when of cos they decide to make it work again!) *sob, sob, sob* make una head no swell o!

i have blogs to read, lera men!

For Girls Only, Keeping Mr. Man

I read some relationship book a long time ago, when i still used to read them, stopped for a while now cos, well, i still havent found the right bobo, e never gree come and then, sometimes, those methods dont work jo.
ntywayz, i stumbled on this old jotter of mine, i actually wrote down what the writer labelled as pitfalls, even i trip for me!

so, for lack of nothing to do now (i actually have a brief staring me in the face but right now it looks like greek and latin) and for lack of better thing to post (yeah right) i shall give u the tips/pitfalls. some of us are actually guilty of them. and some of them aint so baaaaad abi? u tell:

1. making the first move
2. saying i love you before he does (well, kini big deal?)
3. sex too early in a relationship (ok, when is the right time? 1 yr, 5 months, 2 days?)
4. neglecting self development
5. sharing too much too soon
6. failing to keep in shape (find a man, keep the man!)
7. asking a man to marry you (were!)
8. dating married men
9. playing house with a man
10. spending too much time with a man you just met (now, thats hard, what if he is sooo fine and sooo nice to be with?)
11. refusing to let go of an Ex
12. trapping by getting pregnant (ode, were, foolish!)
13. becoming over-possessive
14. trying to re-make a man
15. unnecessarily fussing and nagging
16. failing to practice proper standards of hygiene
17. failure to appreciate the revealing and defining power of time (well.......)
18. failing to love yourself before expecting to be loved
19. neglecting to look your best at all times

so, those are the ones by the writer, i have these to add, i sabi small:

20. sticking with mr. mike tyson (the beater) why on earth do girls stick that?!!!
21. sucking up to his rude siblings so he can marry you (i appreciate the place of respect but then, pls!!!)
22. neglecting your own friends to be with him all the time (ok, its easy to do that cos our girlfriends dont kiss and touch and make our hearts go gbam gbam, but its wrong)
23. telling him you hate all his friends (diplomacy, even though u do)
24. emmmmm................ add ur own

PS
i and MF sort of made up last nite, i am still debating if that was a smart thing to do considering............
MF means Male Figure which means the guy currently reigning in my life while i dont have an active boyfriend. i keep telling myself am not MF's girlfriend. stupid, foolish... i guess
i will give u full gist of MF in another post.

Am back

Have been away from work and life generally since last tuesday, i went for the trip to kano and then came the wahala.........



Kano is.... not a bad town sha, very hot, very muslim, i was hoping and praying subconciously that i see a simply dressed lady, i was putting on pants and shirt, very decent but u know the feeling. saw worse later so i felt better. They were really quite friendly folks. had a lunch at a place called pounded yam and co, would have called it lovely but fever was already setting in so the taste was somewhere between sweet and sawdust.

would have said i had a great time but the journey was far from smooth. by the time i finished my buss, it was close to 3pm. of cos at the car park, agbero lied that they were almost complete, had to pay for 2 just to get out of the place. was coughing so bad with some thick sputum (yuck, yuck, yuck!) and chest pain. got home late and fell very very ill. hospital pronounced losts of things from the test, malaria and pneumonia (mba, God forbid), plenty drugs, plenty injections, my bum aches like mad right now.
got 2 nice docs to myself, hmm, how nice. one was very very nice and caring, always wanted to date a doc but sha. and NO! i didnt do anything silly with either docs, so just relax.

ntwayz, most importantly, i am back on my feet, am fine now, i can kick asses now and am just so so grateful to God.

boy drama!

ti su mi joright now, i have a king sized headache, guess its cos i dont want to be at work, and then, most annoyingly, am on my way to kano 2mrw! i am sure someone reading this has a gun, can i like hire it? need to shoot my office folks!

una see me see issue o! had plenty things to get angry about yesterday.
issue one:
there is this bros who believes he is asking me out. why not, i havent even acknowledged his toasting but cant discard him just yet (or so i thot) cos he likes to take me to SFC and Biobak (na u know o, cast the first stone make i see).
so last nite he came over to come say hi, first time in my room, bros can so talk!!!!! Jesus Christ! and if na person wey im gist dey sweet, e for good o! the guy discusses just one topic: HIMSELF. he can talk 5 mins none stop, doesnt matter that u havent replied, he just talks about him, him and him. Geez! he knows nothing bout me o, he doesnt ask cos he is busy telling me the very very boring details of his life, like i bloody care! after he talked for about 20 mins, he asked to see my pics, more talk bout him, even in my pics! right there in my head i went "omotee, to hell with the SFC and Biobak, u have officially discarded dis bros"! bros likes nothing other than the sound of his own voice and if dem ask am, he go say im dey toast me.

2 other important knock offs bout bros: height issues (short), not very good englis (by dat i mean the very bad type).
he is sooooo out of my face!

issue 2:
guy was my friend in uni days (for lack of better word), we gist in nite class et al. guy is just there sha, my friend, but i can relate well with guy.
so last month i jam guy for abj and we like "OMG, na u be dis?! lets hook up!" guy even stays in my area, so once in a while, we hook up and gist.
guy meets babe in my crib, babe is a very fine girl, cocacola kinda shape, the handy type, all d works. guy, naturally begin like babe, etc.
guy told me he likes babe, what do i think? like am sposed to say he shd not toast babe?! no get me wrong, babe na nice chic, to da best of my little knowledge. i and babe were friends in sec school. ntywayz, am like "u wanna ask babe out?" said yes. babe is a nice girl, told guy that. but at that point, guy wasnt particularly using his head to think, he used male equivalent to brain (of cos u know what i mean) to think.
guy has just started asking babe out and he is already having issues!

b4 i bore u to death, to crown da whole crap, last nite, guy called me like 9.45pm to say he dey downstairs. for ol times sakes, asked guy to come up. took guy anoda 1hr to do that, which is just annoying. dat i stay alone doesnt give nobody d rite to think they can call me up anytime,but then, i no blame am, there is the IGNORE device on every fone, i shda used it.
ntywayz, i let guy know i didnt apreciate d late nite visits cos i was ready to sleep (well, watching grey's anatomy at the mo but dats like my me time!)
guy said sorry, but dat he had somfin impt. to talk bout, of cos its about babe. he goes "omotee, btw u and me, i think babe is an opportunist". in my head i thot "how much as she asked him to bring?"
asked why and guy went on to talk bout how babe asked him to drop her somewhere, wait for her, use his fone, take her somewhere, buy her credit, blah, blah, blah. and am like "ok, is dat d def of opportunist?". oh, i forgot, he said babe recieved lotsa fone calls from guys and he got jealous and that babe said someone was her oga and he doesnt think so, that he said them looking at each other "knowingly".

i aint exactly excusing babe, i think. but hey, i got my reasons ok.
guy tells me and every plus babe dat he has a wifey in UK, has her pic all over his fone and lappy. babe knows all this and u r asking babe out o, biko, is babe sposed to take guy serious?! i mean, its like ur married boyfriend telling u not to worry cos he has problems with wifey and will soon divorce her!
of cos, big mouthed me (plus he broke my sleep, i can tell him anything!) i asked him what exactly he wanted and why was he telling me all the plenty stories.
he said he wasnt expeccting babe to behave like dat cos he really likes babe and was hoping for plenty things, he wants to get married (yeah, my ex said so too), he even made babe talk to his elder bro and told his friend that she was his wife! hello, they met like mid last month! he was thinking of ditching girlfie for babe.

then i started my lecture.
1, guy, u dont have a girlfie or fiancee.
girlfie is in UK, the sposed rel startd over the fone. he hasnt seen girlfie in years, he says and believes girlfie and her folks love him and want him to abandon life and move to the UK cos of girlfie (yeah right, like he is dangote + denzel washington). at the same time, they want him to chill cos girlfie is 21 and is in uni and u are agbalagbi! plus girlfie doesnt even call guy that often. yet my guy carry picture decorate all over, if na me, i go wait make e tell me real story?! hell not! perhaps guy don chase better babe away with picture sef.

2. if u ask every fine girl out just cos they are fine and ur other brain ask u to do so, u go soon carry mammy water. chill out and be babe's friend first. then u get to know a little bout her (b4 u call her gold digger) and then ask her out.
u never even sabi babe and u wan make she throway her fone already?! my guy hard small o!

3. shut up and grow da hell up already! (ok, not in those exact words tho)
i hate it when a man talks like a girl! all that plenty talk on top wetin?! personally, i find it hard to stick a guy who talks too much! guy talked for over 45 mins fa!
u had to be with me last nite, Lawd! i wanna die!
and then he went on to talk bout how emotional he is, and that he can get emotional bout things, its not easy for him to just discard his feelings. plus he is a man now, and girlfie has not been around to satisfy his needs as a man. so its really "hard" for him. b4 he will start crying, i intended sending him away.
i see, that was what the story was about, sex! u see what am talking about?! do u all get me?! puhlease!
if i were babe sef, he can be nothing other than my credit and rides man, before i sack his silly ass!

ok, plenty story. i learnt one important lesson tho, i will never pick calls of pipo i dont wanna see at nite again, its not a sin jo! o, and he said he will call me today after work so we can hook up and talk some more!
emi ke????????!!!!!!!!!!!1 God forbid!!!!!! i cannot have bad luck twice, and def not on 1st of september!

happy new month guys!

nba conf

been ages since i posted any (who cares), blogs like rayo's has been keeping me busy and amused!
so i went on 2 wks leave, had the boringest of moments, came back to work and was bathed into another more boringest moment. then came the NBA conference.
conferences of any kind make me feel......... dunno how to explain it.
the first day of the conference, i tried to pretend like it was my thing, listened (tried) to all the welcome addresses, i really enjoyed Modibbo of the FCT, the guy didnt have a prepared speech but was intelligent and brief. others were ok. they lost me when some white folk came up. am like "Oyinbo ke?!" what da hell does he know bout Naija? no be say i no hear english o, i hear am, i fit form am sef but hey, white folks bore me when they try to talk serious talk. after then, i practically how to translate what they were saying from greek into english and then comprehend.....so i left the place!
since then, i was either faffing around with my equally jobless friends (i know she is reading this and hates me now, too bad), meeting old friends, seeing old nuisances who have still refused to change, meet some important snr lawyers and behave like i care about them, my cheeks aching from fake smiles etc
as u can see, it was crap, crap and more crap.

i have lots of things in my head that i want to write about, i dont just seem to think i can put it down

housewifing

i don begin dey hate dis leave o! i am almost always usually bored but this is different. this week, i have been MEGA SUPA DUPA EXTRA BORED!



it just keeps me wondering how anybody will concede to the idea of being a housewife! pls dont get me wrong (trust me, i can hear it all, and see the daggers too). at this age and stage, except u have a baby to nurse or want to stay home with ur very young kids, i cannot, for the life of me imagine why anyone would one to be a stay at home wife, its crazy! i almost ran mad.



I must say that am not in support of the 6am - 9pm work arrangement of women (single, married, mothers) and i feel gradually, the world is gearing towards anti-life (for lack of correct phrase) the fast growing ultra-modern (borrow me english) doesnt support the growth of a relationship, marriage (honey long time, sorry am too tired for sex, cant cook grab a pizza), family life generally etc and thank God (kinda) for the invention of cell phones, i can convinently tell oga am at a late meeting while i am getting a quickie with my fine colleague (i no do am o), afterall, oga sef for don tire when we reach sef. its just crazy!

but i digress, back to main point.



In spite and despite my campaign for what i might call real life, i will never be able to understand why any man would want to camp his wife at home. more so when most men do it for the most selfish reasons. some men (usually) are simply scared of success, their definition of being the man to them means they have to have more money to subdue and suppress you, you cant buy or do nothing without them. some just have issues sha. whatever the issues, its all just bull crap!

In Memoriam

Oluwakemi Folaranmi

my darling friend.

16th August would have been your birthday but now you are gone

just felt like you'll always be around,

we had such great plans this time last year,

we were going to be through with NYSC on the 14th of August last year,

we were going to be great women,

we prayed and dreamt good dreams together.

we had very little but great times together.

remember how we will buy corns and "ube" and eat it on the main road

cos it will be too cold by the time we got back home or the office,

and how u will always say "fimile jare, talo n wo jero mi?" (leave me alone, who is looking at me)

when i tell her we cant eat corn on the road.

remember how u used to encourage me when my boss annoyed me with all his wahala

how u had an answer and a sweet word for everything,

how u brought out comedy in terrible situations i found myself in.

remember how u used to console me when boyfie was turning my life upside down,

how u used to tell me things will work out well,

and pray with me.

remember the last time i saw you, January this year.

how could i have known it was the last time?

your pretty face still hunts me, your lovely voice

i still cant delete your phone numbers,

cant delete your name from my messanger.

it still baffles and hurts me to realise that you will never pick my calls again,

that you will never talk to me again.

Oluwakemi,

i only pray and hope that we meet again with our Lord Jesus.

I love and miss you sooooo much.

sun re o!